So, Tommy and I made a very last minute decision to get married... In two and a half weeks! So, as long as we can get everything organized, it looks like we're doing it on Aug. 4.
It's so crazy to me! Honestly, I've been the reason we're not married yet. I'm so worried about commitment, even though I have no reason to be. Getting married is just a piece of paper; Tommy and I already have a beautiful son, and it doesn't get much more committed than that. Don't get me wrong, I know that marriage means something, but in today's society, if you change your mind you just get a divorce. When you have a child with someone, it's not like you can just make them go away. You have to see them and hear about them for the rest of your life.
So, aside from my dumb reservations about getting married, we're doing it. We've been together for 9 1/2 years.... THAT'S ALMOST A DECADE! Makes me feel old. We've grown up together. I'm not perfect, and neither is he, but I think we fit well together. I'm excited about the next chapter in our lives, and we're finally making it official. Then, maybe we'll start working on another baby. ;-)
So, with deciding to get married three weeks before the date I've set, comes some very stressful planning. I think we've got the venue nailed down, and it's more than I want to spend, but basically the cheapest we've found. I'm trying on dresses this weekend, which should be fun. Then I just have to figure out decor. Flowers are ridiculously expensive, and I don't have that kind of money, so I'll be doing a lot of DIY decorating projects. I don't want it to look hokey, but just a bouquet is over $100!!!! That's retarded, in my humble opinion. I still have to send out invitations! So, my next couple of weekends will be spent planning. I am truely excited though.
Now, if my sunburn didn't still hurt, I could start trying to lose five pounds before the wedding... we'll see. Probably not going to happen, but a girl can hope, right?